Those of you who know me well know that I have been on a Spiritual journey all my life. You also know most of the details of different phases of that journey – the successes and breakthroughs, as well as the challenges, struggles, and even dormant periods. You know my favorite questions are “Why?” and “Did you know…..?” Youmy endless quest for knowledge and comprehension, not only of the substance and matter of this dimension and reality, but of the Higher Purpose.
Following another latent period, the spring of 1997 heralded a re-awakening of the need to once again begin my Spiritual Development journey with intensity and focus. I have been constantly driven to search for answers to questions like, “Why am I here?” “Why are any of us here?” “Where did I/we come from?” “Where am I headed?” “What is my purpose?” “What is the soul?” “What is the spirit?” I have always felt there was more to “all of this” than just what we could observe with our five senses. I understood there was a difference between the organic brain and the mind. I understood that another dimension (or dimensions) exist, that the physical me was not the “real” me.
Along my journey I’ve actively sought out various experts in the fields of religion and science and have incessantly asked lists of questions. Many tried to answer my questions, though some turned away, and yet with all the answers – there was still a drive to ask more. There was an inner knowing that “this is a great theory, but this still isn’t ‘it.’” Conventional religion didn’t fit. Science didn’t complete all the gaps. Many answers were satisfactory only to a certain extent. There was still something missing. Something was still not quite right.
I searched in vain – traveling from church to church, exploring various religions – both Eastern and Western constructs. I explored various sociological paradigms, cultural belief systems, and I became a scientist myself. I’ve traveled to and lived in many different countries studying languages and cultures. I’ve studied Psychology, Naturopathy, and Meditation techniques. I’ve studied Newtonian Physics and Quantum Mechanics, explored Fractals and Chaos theory. I’ve studied the theory of the Golden Ratio and Phi. I’ve studied and taught Physiology, Anatomy and Biology. I’ve studied biochemical pathways of the body and have explored electromagnetic energies and how they interact with physical matter. I’ve explored the physical human body in intricate and intimate detail. And still – endless questions remained unanswered. I delved into Metaphysics exploring Astrology, Tarot, Numerology and archetypal symbolism. I’ve explored hypnosis, regression therapy, and reincarnation. I developed my psychic abilities, explored remote viewing and astral projection. I’ve earned certificates, diplomas and degrees. I have constructed, deconstructed, reconstructed. I have engineered and reverse engineered. I have dissected and examined. I have used microscopes and telescopes. And I finally came to understand that all this time I’ve been searching for the same thing: to intimately connect with and ultimately understand my Creator. To understand my true origin. To understand on a higher level how we are all energy and are all connected. There is a blending of physical and metaphysical… but what does it all mean?
I’ve never “fit in.” I’ve always been different. I’ve always taken the road less traveled and been on the outer edges of convention. I’ve always understood that I am here to observe, experience and interact with this world and yet I am not OF this world. I am just a visitor, passing through. I know that I’ve been incarnate in a physical form before – many times. I understand that I have a higher soul purpose – a role that I am to fulfill in this lifetime. And I know that when I listen to that inner knowing it is guiding me as I allow it to – to a revelation of my soul purpose and understanding of that higher purpose. I know that all of my life experiences, each and every one, has been grooming me and shaping me to be able to fulfill my ultimate soul purpose. And finally I was able to stop frantically searching and simply become quiet and rest. I was able to put out to the Universe simply, “This is what I know and now and I am ready for you to reveal to me what you wish me to know and do from here. I’m ready to just listen.”
There are no coincidences. There is Divine Synchronicity. There is a complexity in the simplicity and a divine order to the chaos. It’s all about perspective.
They say when the student is ready the teacher will appear. I am ready to re-awaken and re-connect. I’m ready to experience a new love consciousness and transformational inter-connected soul journey. Are you ready to awaken too? Are you ready to connect? Are you ready to move forward on your Spiritual Journey? Are you ready to heed that inner voice and pursue your ultimate soul purpose? Are you ready to open yourself to the possibilities of multi-dimensional consciousness? Are you ready for your teacher to appear?